I Didnt Realize Until Now :: Love Letters Dating Email Relationships

Dear Susan,I didnt realize until now undecomposed how badly I mishandled our relationship. By being apart and not talk for some duration now, I have quickly learned that you were e actuallything I ever wanted and because I was so afraid of losing you, I terminate up chasing you a expression. It wasnt until recently that realized that instead of complaining about the time I didnt have with you, I should have cherished the time I did have. The time we had together was real and filled with affection.I was never but when we were apart, because yet as you were on my mind, I was on yours. It wasnt until now that I have realized how special it was to hear your voice even if it was just once a day, let alone several times a day.It wasnt until now that I have realized that it wasnt the late phone cry (out) for me to come over because you lacked me, or to stay overnight that I miss so much. What I miss is the feeling behind the personal manner you would stare at me and or kiss my hand while we were in the car. The way we looked into each others eyes and spoke without saying a word. The way you trusted me with your children and I trusted you with mine. The way you wrote I love you on a steamy window or mirror only to portray up time after time for me to see when we were apart. The way you write to me that you loved me or snuck a kiss or hug in while the kids werent watching. The way we joked that we were attached at the hip while haunt dinner or breakfast. The way we wrestled and tickled each other. Susie, I could go on and on but you know exactly what Im saying. Yes, its the little things I miss the most. The little things that I took for granted. The check I made to you is a promise that I will keep forever. You will always hold a special place in my heart. Even though Im dating here and there, I end up comparing them to you. Youve set the bar very high for me and thats a good thing because I refuse to dip for less than the standard youve set. On that Wed nesday (July 11th) when I returned home and found your e-mail, it was the happiest Id been in weeks.